Alone I am driven each day by dawn
To wake and wander, to cry my cares.
Now there are none among the quick
To whom I dare to bare my heart,
Tell my thought. Too truly I ken [know]
That in a man it is no vice
To keep his counsel chest-locked,
Hold close his mind-hoard.
No weary wit may scorn weird, [fate]
Nor wrecked will work hope;
Wherefore, belike [likely], fame-chasers
Fasten darkness in deep moods.
Therefore I must curb my mind —
Cut off from kindred, cast from country,
Care-overborne — bind it in fetters,
For long ago the ground's grip
Took my weal-lord. Wretched, I went,
Winter-dreary, over the wave.
I sought the hall of a gold-giver
Where, far or near, I might find
Him whose meadhall would host the castaway,
Grant comfort to one cursed,
Hail me heartily.
........................He who struggles
Knows how cruel a companion is care
To him who has few shield-friends.
The path presses him, no purse of gold;
Not Midgard's [Earth's] glory, but heart's cavern.
He recalls hall-men, treasure-sharing;
In youth-yore his loaf-lord
Sat him to feast. This joy is fallen.
He who is forced to forgo the word
Of his liege-lord learns this lore:
How sleep and sorrow, twined together,
Bind in a bight [knot] the bitter outcast.
Dwelling in dream, he and his lord
Clasp and kiss, lay on knee
Hand and head, as betimes
In days dwindled, upon the gift-stool.
Then he wakens, the forsaken man,
And spies before him bleak spume;
Seamews swimming, stroking feathers;
Swirling hail; hoarsnow falling.
His heart's wounds hurt anew
For his loved lord. Grief blossoms.
The wraiths of kinsmen gather in thought;
He cries out gladly, scans eagerly
The throngs of his hearth — they scud away.
Long-boatmen's ghosts bring not many
Old lays there. Care freshens
In him who sends forward too oft
His warm heart over weary tides.
In Midgard I wit not why
My mind is not mired
When it roves the lives of earls,
How in a stroke they forswore their halls,
Those mood-proud theigns. Thus does Midgard,
Each day and all, age and fall.
No man is wise who has not won
His winters-lore. The wise man bides,
Not hot-hearted, nor speech-hasty,
Nor weak in war, nor wanting in reckoning,
Nor too goods-grasping, too glad, too mild,
Nor boast-breasted, before he kens.
The sage forbears folly-boasting
Till fierce wit fully wots [knows]
Which wind will take his spleen.
A wise man grasps how grim
This world shall be when its wealth wastes,
Even as now, in numberless places,
Earth's walls fall, wind-riven,
Rimed with hoar-ruined houses.
The wine-halls moulder; their wrights lie
In wolfbane, their bandsmen slain
Under the tower. The sword took some
In its course; a bird carried
One over Ocean; one the werewolf
Dealt to death; one stretched
His dreary-eyed earl in an earthen trench.
The Man-Maker [God] has marred this hearth
So men's laughter has sunk to stillness:
That wight [man] who looked on these walls wisely,
Who sounded deeply this dark life,
Would hark back to the blood spilled,
Weigh it well. His word would be,
"Where is the steed that served these men?
Where is the horde and the hoard-sharer?
Where is the fastness, the feast, the fanfare?"
Bright Cup! Burnished knight!
Eager earl! Your age tarnished
In night's helm, torn out of time!
There stands, instead of staunch theigns,
A louring wall wrought with worm-wrines;
The earls eat dust beneath the ash-spear —
Thirsty biter! Their weird is proud.
Storms stutter on the stone hill,
The ground battered by bitter hail,
Weather-wrath. Bleakness breaks
And night-shade spreads, sends from the North
The hobnail sleet to harry man.
In Midgard all is crossed and melled;
Weird's-will wrenches the world.
Wealth is our loan, friends our lending;
Mankind is lent, kinsmen lent:
Earth's frame shall stand forsaken.
Anonymous Old English
From “Ancient Music” in The Collected Lyrics of Lewis Turco / Wesli Court 1953-2004, Scottsdale: Star Cloud Press, copyright © 2004 by Lewis Turco. All rights reserved.

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